Ficlet: Openness (Firefly, Inara)
Jun. 5th, 2006 11:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thegirl20Title: Openness
Author: Angie (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
the_girl_20)
Character: Inara
Rating: G
Prompt: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be and why? (written for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
big_damn_quests)
Word Count: 370
What would I change about myself? My, my, you are persistent, aren’t you? Given the chance, what would I change about myself…
I would be less closed. I would allow myself moments of weakness. Or, rather, I would allow other people to see them.
Years of training have taught me that I have to be perfect at all times. That I am to take pride in myself, both in appearance and in demeanour. Now I find it difficult to be otherwise.
I’ve had my pride dented in the past, someone once saw me at my lowest and it took me all of my strength to pick myself back up again. I don’t know that I would recover a second time. But I’m straying from the subject.
In a way, answering these questions for you is a good start for me. I’m not one to answer probing questions. You should think yourself lucky.
Here on Serenity, there isn’t a great deal of room for pride or perfection. Not when ignorant people insist on barging into one’s quarters unannounced when one could be doing anything. Or when one shares a dinner table with ruffians who have the table-manners of pigs.
I would say that I’m getting better. I’ve allowed people in a little. With Kaylee I had very little say in the matter. She turned up at my door, all wide eyes, oil stains and bright smiles and I was smitten. I can’t help but love her, which opens me up to all sorts of trouble. When she was shot I thought I…well, actually, I’d rather not talk about that.
The others I’ve allowed to see me in varying degrees. Some more than others. Some of them have a tendency to slip past my walls on occasion, without my permission I might add. Some of them are under my skin in ways I can’t control and didn’t bargain for. Sometimes I think that’s a good thing.
Then he’ll go and do something stupid like kissing that jien hwo and I’ll…I’m sorry? Who’s he? He’s nobody. I meant ‘they’. They, generally, will do something stupid and I’ll find myself closing off again.
That’s it. We’re finished here, yes? Then I’ll bid you good-evening.
P.S. I got Jayne in the next round :)
Author: Angie (
the_girl_20)Character: Inara
Rating: G
Prompt: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be and why? (written for
big_damn_quests)Word Count: 370
What would I change about myself? My, my, you are persistent, aren’t you? Given the chance, what would I change about myself…
I would be less closed. I would allow myself moments of weakness. Or, rather, I would allow other people to see them.
Years of training have taught me that I have to be perfect at all times. That I am to take pride in myself, both in appearance and in demeanour. Now I find it difficult to be otherwise.
I’ve had my pride dented in the past, someone once saw me at my lowest and it took me all of my strength to pick myself back up again. I don’t know that I would recover a second time. But I’m straying from the subject.
In a way, answering these questions for you is a good start for me. I’m not one to answer probing questions. You should think yourself lucky.
Here on Serenity, there isn’t a great deal of room for pride or perfection. Not when ignorant people insist on barging into one’s quarters unannounced when one could be doing anything. Or when one shares a dinner table with ruffians who have the table-manners of pigs.
I would say that I’m getting better. I’ve allowed people in a little. With Kaylee I had very little say in the matter. She turned up at my door, all wide eyes, oil stains and bright smiles and I was smitten. I can’t help but love her, which opens me up to all sorts of trouble. When she was shot I thought I…well, actually, I’d rather not talk about that.
The others I’ve allowed to see me in varying degrees. Some more than others. Some of them have a tendency to slip past my walls on occasion, without my permission I might add. Some of them are under my skin in ways I can’t control and didn’t bargain for. Sometimes I think that’s a good thing.
Then he’ll go and do something stupid like kissing that jien hwo and I’ll…I’m sorry? Who’s he? He’s nobody. I meant ‘they’. They, generally, will do something stupid and I’ll find myself closing off again.
That’s it. We’re finished here, yes? Then I’ll bid you good-evening.
P.S. I got Jayne in the next round :)
